Running in Heels:Talita's Goodbye Thanks
Sun., Apr. 19, 2009 5:30 PM PDT by Talita Silva
Hello, Everyone!
I have to apologize for this week's blog being exceptionally long. As the show has come to an end and this is my final one, I have so much to say. Please bear with me and thank you for taking the time to read it.
I want to clarify some things as some of you were a bit confused last week by how friendly I was towards Sam. Some thought it was "fake." What you may not know is that we filmed for five, sometimes six days a week for nine to eleven hours a day. What you get to see on the show is only a tiny part of a week, and so much happens in between each episode, most of which, unfortunately, you don't get to see. Which is why two weeks ago, Sam and I were fighting like cats and dogs and then the next week, I stuck up for her in my blog and/or talked nice about her. Sam and I had a special connection when we first met (for all you perverts, not that kind of connection!). In the beginning, she was like a little sister to me and I protected her. She helped me out so much with taking care of Chanel when I had to work on the weekend during Fashion Week, etc. She is a good person and even though we did have some bumps, we worked it out, thank God. For a while I just loved to hate her but now I have nothing but love for her.
The Mexico shoot was a huge deal and the three of us did so much preparation together for it. Although I did really want to go and felt very left out, confused, and upset that both Ashley and Samantha were getting to go, I was also somewhat relieved to now have the apartment to myself for a few days. Plus, I was glad to be at the office by myself and have one last chance to stand out and get face-to-face time with Joanna. Well, wouldn't you know that I got to do just that!
When Joanna called upon me to help out during the crisis the editors were facing after they lost one of the people they were featuring in a story, I knew that I had to be "on." I had to tap into that part of me that knew I was capable and that I was enough! It was time to be the grownup and I busted my ass staying up late and stressing out the night before so that I could present Joanna with an incredible presentation while the other two interns were gone. I thank God that it was me who was there and got this opportunity.
When I met with Joanna, it was a very special moment for me. She said some amazing things about me during that meeting and was very impressed. It was like, good Lord, I'd finally made it happen—and in the right way! This moment made all my wrongs along the way so worth it. I felt like my mission for this internship was accomplished and that whatever was to happen from that moment would just be a bonus.
I was definitely proud of Ashley and Samantha for the work they did in Mexico. From what they told me, they did work really hard and didn't kill each other in the process. I was shocked. They seemed to have had fun as well and yes, it bummed me out because I was stuck in New York during some nasty snow while they got to take breaks and sip on margaritas by the pool or whatever. They even brought me back a wonderful picture of the two of them in their big trendy sunglasses holding an ice-cold cocktail that I have in my room right now. But I wouldn't trade what I got to experience at the office and my alone time with Joanna for nothing!
The exit meeting with Joanna was something I was certainly dreading throughout my entire time at Marie Claire, but by the end of my experience, it was also something I knew I was prepared for and looked forward to, if that makes any sense. I can think back and remember that Ashley in particular was very stressed out about the meeting and the outcome, and at this point, we all had a feeling that one of us would get a job. The tension was obviously high in our household, especially between me and Ashley.
I had no expectations going into the meeting and I think that was the best way to go. I was anxious to hear what Joanna had to say about me, but I also thought that even if I didn't get a job offer, I would walk away from this experience a true winner on account of everything that I had gained from it. Yes, I almost lost my sanity at times with having cameras following my every move. And by working like crazy, I could have jeopardized my health. But I discovered a talent that I never knew I had—interviewing.
Not only did I get some incredible experience, I also was so lucky to meet the people I did along the way (MC editors, fashion designers, and all the people I got to interview) and attend some insane A-list events. I did desperately want to stay with Marie Claire and continue what I was doing. Yet I have to admit that I was also nervous to be offered a position because even though living permanently in New York is my #1 dream, I wasn't sure I was completely ready at the time.
After giving us our reviews, Joanna announced she wanted to continue a working relationship with one of us. It was the moment we had all anticipated. When she said my name, I had to work really hard at containing myself. Then she went on to describing the position and announced that I would be a "West Coast contributing editor." I wanted to scream! I swear I felt like I was in a dream because this was too good to be real. I would get to do what I love and am so passionate about while still living in Southern Cali with the love of my life, my doggie Chanel. I felt so undeserving and was so humbled by it all.
I was disappointed and blown away by Ashley's reaction to my getting the job. It was so hard for me because I wanted to celebrate and rejoice and be happy, and I couldn't. So I just stayed quiet and I began to realize that the end was reminding me a lot of my very first day. I was seeing that side of Ashley again. Sam, of course, was happy and proud of me. Yes, it sucked that Ashley didn't have a job and that she was so emotional because she did want the position so badly. I felt bad for her. I care about Ashley so much and it hurt me to see her that way. Yes, it cut me in the heart when she made the comment in the end that she deserved it more than me and that I am "less competent" than she is—and that everybody else thinks so, too. Still, I forgave her and by the time we said goodbye, there were no hard feelings. I knew she would be OK no matter what, and I still consider Ash to be a friend.
Saying goodbye to Ashley and Samantha was very hard and painful. I had learned so much from the both of them, and I had grown as a person from living with them. It was true perseverance on my part. They had become sisters to me and yes, I had my ups and downs with both of them, but I was walking away with some unforgettable memories. I care about both of them and I have no doubt in my mind that they will do some amazing things in their lives as they are so talented. I want to thank them both for coming into my life for many reasons. Thank you to the both of you for getting me through this experience and for putting up with me. Trust me, I know that I am a very difficult person!
I now look forward to what is ahead for me and am ecstatic to work for Marie Claire. It is an honor and a privilege, and everything I went through was so worth it. And thank you to the fans who tuned in each week and supported us. I'm sure and hope this isn't the last you will see of me.
Now, answers to your questions:
A few of you have asked about my doggie, Chanel, and what happened to her. Chanel is doing very well and is back with me in Southern California. What you didn't get to see on the show was that I had to send her back to L.A. right at the midpoint of our internship. My parents took care of her while I was in New York because I could hardly pay attention to her. It was the hardest thing for me to have to do since she is the love of my life, but I knew she was better off with my parents. And yes, she still pees everywhere when she gets excited!
As for the gold chain link bracelet I wore on the episode in which I go to the red carpet event with Susan Sarandon (I also wear it on this week's final episode), I got it at J.Crew.
And no, I'm not a tranny!!!
Xoxo,
Talita
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Now loading...Gloria Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 12:38 PM
1. Congraulations! Talita I am SO happy for you. Good luck!
Dawn Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 6:02 PM
2. I have seen you grow from an insecure young woman into someone who could hold her own. Congrats, I think you will do very well.
B Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 6:12 PM
3. Yeah! I'm so glad you got the job! I loved you from day one-you were always very classy, professional and intelligent. Thanks for representing us LA girls well!
Lyn Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 6:21 PM
4. Congratulations Talida! Throughout the entire series, you handled yourself with grace and dignity. You worked very hard and grew from your mistakes......after all, isn't that what an internship is all about?Best wishes to you in your new opportunity. I will look forward to reading your articles!
Emily Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 6:24 PM
5. You did awesome!!!! In the beginning I wasn't too sure of how your internship would go, but you really proved how great and kind you at by the end. Best wishes to you and Chanel, and I hope you keep moving up the "ladder" at Marie Claire.
Mia Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 6:43 PM
6. CONGRATS TALITA!!! You truly deserve this opportunity. At first I was little put off by your semi "Ashley attitude" but with each show you grew as a person and business woman. Your fashion sense is amazing, I thought you were the best dressed in every episode from day 1 and I wish you much success!!!!
Martha Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 6:52 PM
7. Congratulations on your new job assignment! wow! also what happened to your dog that you brought to new york with you? did you have to send the dog home? just curious
GC Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 6:57 PM
8. Talita,I think we witnessed your own personal growth story in the episodes on Running with Heels. I have to be honest, I was a bit put off by the 'villain' role you fell into at the beginning of the episodes. Of course, there must be a mean girl in these types of shows! But honestly, as time went by and your true GOOD colors came across, I really began to think that of all 3 girls you were the most open, honest, likeable character there. I read comments people left- some are vicious and cruel and unfounded! A tranny * what a horrible thing to be called! I have a feeling you're above these silly comments and can care less. At least, please don't care * people need to feel better by tearing apart public figures like yourself!I didn't have a desire for you to 'win' the real job at the beginning (it was hard to watch Sam get pounced upon by you and moreso by Ashley later on!), by the end I wanted nobody but YOU to win. Girl, you worked it! You deserved it * I'm proud of you!
GC Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 7:00 PM
9. p.s. by the way, your personal style is fabulous and by the end I was rooting for you!! You are a gorgeous smart woman who will have a promising future. Best of luck at Marie Claire and I can't wait to see your name in print!!! p.p.s. on all the negative comments out there * better to be talked about than not talked about at all! don't take any of those comments to heart! go rule the world!!!
vickie Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 7:34 PM
10. you rock kid/ you will go far
Gina Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 7:53 PM
11. CONGRATS TALITA! I was rooting for you the whole way through. I hoped that you would get a level higher than Ashley and Sam. I like how much effort you put into your work and your positive, mature attitudes. FABULOUS job!!!!!!!!!!! **
Ummmm Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 8:34 PM
12. I'm just glad Ashley didn't get the job. She is one nasty piece of work. You are ALMOST as bad as she is though so I can't be happy for you or even consider subscribing to Marie Claire. Ultimately, this show was just a waste of time.
KAHOANE Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 8:37 PM
13. Congratulations, gosh, yes at some point I felt like the opportunity was really bearing down on you, I am HAPPY and glad. Your passion for fashion shows- much luck with your future at Marie Claire.
liz Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 8:41 PM
14. i don't get you either....you are just as bad as ashley....
Carol Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 9:03 PM
15. Congrats * you deserved the job! I know there are a lot of editing to make the eps look dramatic but it was also clear towards the last few episodes that you were not as shallow as you seemed at the beginning. Good luck with everything and all the best with your new job!
Carol Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 9:05 PM
16. P.S. It was incredibly selfish and immature of Ashley to cry like that during your moment. Same as it was very stupid and selfish of her to burst out laughing like that when Samantha was first chosen to go to Mexico, not mention totally unprofessional. To your credit * you held your tongue and was sympathetic even though Ashley was very ungracious. Word to wise my dear * Samantha will be a much better friend to you. Don't trust Ashley * ever. With anything.
Charla Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 9:09 PM
17. Congrats Talita! You pulled it off with style. I have to say that I was not a fan of yours when you were exhibiting those Ashley-like characteristics, but you got it together. By the end of the show, I was applauding for you as much as I was for Sam. If you stay on top of your game and work on maintaining a beautiful spirit, you will go far. I wish you well.
laraffinee Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 9:11 PM
18. Uh.....am I the only one who thinks that you are still whiny and unprofessional?!? The things you said where not said years ago, but months ago. You are still young and I hope you develop perspective, compassion and a responsible work ethic. You have been given an incredible opportunity to do so.
Jen Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 9:23 PM
19. Talita, while I'm happy for you.....you should learn to curb the way you express your opinons. Being mean and hurtful in your comments doesn't always help to advance in your career. Take heed on Joanna's advise to Ashley.....and you will become successful.
Empowered3 Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 10:19 PM
20. CONGRATS, GIRL..You worked it, and everyone knows it. Unlike your competitor, Ashley, you took this internship and made it yours. You made the turn around from villain quickly, went through your missteps, recovered and became an editor at the end. The best thing that happened to you was not going to Mexico. Best to You in the future, I look forward to your articles... And forget about Ash, she's just incompetent in life, she'll never get far until she addresses what she calls "ambition" through therapy. Now go out there and Enjoy the beginning of your Life...
Hope Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 11:03 PM
21. this show is so fake. I bet this ugly girl is trying to look for a real job now... no way she's an editor for a mag... although I hear the mag is going under so who cares anyway.... This show was lame.... this girl is stupid... and she dresses terribly...
Jonelle Bechard Sun, Apr 19, 2009, 11:46 PM
22. Talita ,first off congratulations! I did watch the whole season. At first I thought u were super mean but thank goodness the last couple episodes you stepped it up and were professional. I know you all were competing but hey even if u compete dont be a sore loser and the outcome you were good. Good Luck!
patty Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 6:05 AM
23. Congratulations! At first, I didn't like you, but you really showed who you are: a lady with class. I admire how you handled yourself with Ashley, personally I would have gloated in her face, but that's because she is such a ****** Good luck!
Ariadne Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 7:15 AM
24. I am very happy for you Talita *** Perseverance, hardwork and humility always pays off. I wish you success and a very bright future. I'm glad you're still friends with Sam. You are right, you have very good interviewing skills, you should develop that.
Jackie Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 8:22 AM
25. Internships are a great way of learning about yourself and gets you ready for whats lays ahead. All the best for your future.
Shar Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 10:16 AM
26. Congratulations.......job well done. You really turned out to be a good person. I thought you were being influenced by Ashley, but I'm glad to know that I was wrong. I really wish you the best and good luck on your new job.
cali-girl Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 11:02 AM
27. Hey Talita!!!!CONGRATS! Last week, I purchased my SECOND copy of Marie Claire and the Mexico shoot was in it!!Your sex article was in it too and I felt so sorry for what you went through! That doc totally degraded you and I'm happy that you've come out OK. It was amazing to see Nina Garcia showing the outfits for the magazine's pages in this final episode...those clothes and jewelry were in the mag too! that scene made the mags feature so much more meaningful * thank you to StyleNetwork for showing that clip. btw, I'm one of those readers who actually BUY a few of the fashion pieces shown on the mag's pages :)As a subscriber to ELLE, I signed up for that magazine because of Nina. Now that she is at MC I will buy the mag off the rack until my ELLE subscription ends. I started buying MC because of Nina and now I have a new reason: YOU! ** ** (btw, I love Joanna Coles too!)Best to you again and welcome back to Cali * you made us proud!
Mandie Smith Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 12:37 PM
28. I have to admit that I didn't like you at first. That has changed though. I think you will do great in your new job.
Stacie Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 1:08 PM
29. Talita,Congratulations on your new job. You deserve it. I will buy a magazine just to see what you have to say. Don't be so diplomatic about Ashley. She's a snobby witch who doesn't care about anyone but herself. Joanna had her number from the beginning and I was so happy to hear someone from Marie Claire say it.
RIH Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 1:09 PM
30. You didn't deserve the job, I hope the offer gets revoked or that your contract gets terminated. Your ideas weren't brilliant either- Joanna just saw what she wanted to see in your stories. Its quite comedic that you think we were "confused" about your bipolar attitude towards Sam. When you go from trashing a person one week to claiming that they became "your girl" the following week- its pretty obvious that you were just trying to redeem yourself/save face in the blog after you realized how ugly your behavior was on camera. Thanks for the deluded explanation (deluded self-justifications- something you and Ashley have in common) but the "fake" hypothesis seems far more credible!!!
Janie Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 1:38 PM
31. newsflash people... she is doing freelance work for Marie claire. she is not an employee... which means this show is FAKE... and so is this TRANNY
cali-girl Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 3:49 PM
32. Joanna stated that Talita's name would be on the magazine's masthead as "West Coast Contributing Editor." Talita, that is a huge step from being an Intern and I hope that someday you'll be able to return to NYC :)Sorry Talita, seems that there are some troubled types out there...Take Care,Cali-girl (ELLE subscriber who fully intends to buy MC every month from here on out **
Julie Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 4:33 PM
33. Talita * Congratulations! I am so happy for you. I do think you deserve it, you learned your lessons (spellcheck!) and improved greatly. Personally, I think you should have been able to celebrate and be excited about getting your position despite Ashley, you can be sure she would not have taken into regards yours or Sam's feelings had she been in your position. Best of luck!
Yvonne Mon, Apr 20, 2009, 7:47 PM
34. Talita, at first I wasn't sure about you, but you turned it around for me. I liked Sam but I knew this wasn't the job for her. I absolutely did NOT want Ashley to get it and Joanna proved why she's the BOSS when she completely nailed Ashley. It doesn't matter though because Ashley's a narcissist and will never see any criticism as anything but lies, unless it's about someone else. Sam proved she's a class act, and you proved you're deserving. I think you're gorgeous, I think you're smart, and I think you'll do great. Don't ever cut your hair! You're one of the few women with long hair that looks classy. Have fun with your job and know there are people out there who wish you well. Maybe one day we'll see you in a role like Joanna's. You go Girl!
not a fan Tue, Apr 21, 2009, 7:50 AM
35. How hideous did Talita look with that red lipstick on.... she's usually ugly anyways but that was horrendous... she is ugly inside and out. Bet she has no job right now
Sarah Tue, Apr 21, 2009, 7:55 AM
36. WAtch this "interview" of Talita... (clearly this is just her friend)http://evilbeetgossip.film.com/2009/04/20/back-to-basics-with-talita-silva-from-running-in-heels/She says she is working "freelance" for marie claire...Funny they didn't mention that on the show. Freelance means she is not an employee... means they can hire her per story but that's it... I bet nothing gets published past next month.... Talita will be back to looking for a rich guy to take care of her...
Sh Wed, Apr 22, 2009, 7:43 AM
37. I'm glad the girl from Cali won. I've missed a couple of episodes so I don't know exactly how they worked. But I would have liked either Samantha or Talia to get the position. Ashley is pretty capable but I'm sure it was her attitude that prevented her from getting the job.
Dawn Schailey Thu, Apr 23, 2009, 6:57 AM
38. I had to miss the final episode and I have been watching Style network off and on this week, and finally when I realized I wasn't going to see a re-run of the episode, I decided to go on-line. I was hoping that Talita would get the position...I felt that she was presented herself in the most professional manner throughout the episodes I did see. Congratulations!
CanadianJanelle Fri, Apr 24, 2009, 4:46 PM
39. THe final episode hasn't aired here yet but I have to admit that now that I know that this trainwreck gets a job, I'm going to stop watching.... Maybe she can write about how she maintains her annorexia, or how to not keep a job, or how to dress like a homeless woman...
Sandy Wed, May 6, 2009, 10:23 PM
40. I cannot stand Ashley and Talita. they are the most caty ******** I dont understand how Sam can even talk to them. They think they are something else, and I sure hope neither of them wins
Joanne Thu, May 14, 2009, 7:13 AM
41. I have one question that someone MUST answer for me. Talita's hair- What?? Why does she part it like that?? It is absolutely hideous. Girl needs a stylist in the worst way. Rethink the hair do pronto, and lose the pleated high school uniform slacks.
Sarah Thu, May 14, 2009, 10:53 AM
42. Just got the new Marie Claire and there is NOTHING from Talita... surprise surprise... also there are no reruns if this show... was it that much of a flop?
BW Tue, May 19, 2009, 1:46 PM
43. Parabems Talita,Eu acho que voce aprendeu muintas coisas com este journada. Mais eu vou falar que voce deve sair do EU e veja mais o mundo de fashion. GO CHECK OUT EUROPE GIRL! US fashion is sooooo boring!
fk Wed, May 20, 2009, 12:56 AM
44. am extremely happy for you. you really grew on the show from being behind ashley to becom a fantastic gal. i believe you would do a really good job.congratulations
Ntokozo Wed, May 20, 2009, 2:47 AM
45. I'm so happy that Talita has won,Girl u did not fake your personality,Ashely your bad attitude let you dow,Sam who can hire u while putting your boyfriend before a lifetime opportunity,to me being with your boyfriend caused you this chance,Talita my gal no one can control what people say about you,BUT u can contrl how u take it.Love u Ntosh South Africa
Alison Mon, May 25, 2009, 9:56 AM
46. This show has been in South Africa for the last couple weeks and I have been watching this absolute dog show. I have just found out who wins and I am apauled. Talita you are a moron with no personality and you are just as boring as the show has become. You are pathetic and you really do need to mature and begin acting like an adult. You wine more than my niece of 18 months. As for you constantly talking about sex, you know what they say... the more you inflate yourself the less you have. The doctor probably wanted to have nothing to do with your nastiness. Fashionista my ****** UGLY, UGLY, UGLY. Where do you shop? In the trash??? Talent my ****** You suck.***Joanna you are so stylish and have so much class. How do you even compare your company and ethics with Talita. Very disappointing....***
steretjie Tue, May 26, 2009, 4:30 AM
47. Congratulations Talita, you really deserved to win. I see that there are alot of haters on here, i'm sure that doesnt bother you much anyway. It's easy for people to judge other people without knowing them at all, there is alot more to you i'm sure then what we saw on the show so goodluck with everything and i wish you the best. And to all you haters what makes you so special to critize other people no one is perfect.
Laa'iqah Connelly Wed, May 27, 2009, 11:43 PM
48. Congratulation Talita,I know that half of the time that we do not really see all that you guys go through but I just wanted to say that you knocked the socks off them and you I am really happy for you. Have a fab time with your new job.
Tom Fri, May 29, 2009, 11:08 AM
49. Congratulations. Although you weren't my first choice you were willing to learn and change and make attitude adjustments. So you developed into a deserving winner. The South African who trashed you doesn't speak for all of us. What planet does Ashley come from. I wonder if she's viewed her tapes. Joanna saw right through her. Samantha was great but she just wasn't winning material. Go for it girl and make a name for yourself.
Georgia Sat, Jun 13, 2009, 4:12 AM
50. Congratulations Talita! Good job, you had it from the start though. You are chic